it's just overkill

[verbicide]

Arrrgh. I always forget that espresso and caffeine have the most intense and inexorable effects on me. I had a frigging latte at like 2pm and a diet coke at 6pm and was completely unable to sleep last night. I thought it would be okay, but it was a double-shot espresso thing and I swear it was like nuclear-strength. It's so rare that I have coffee, but I need to remember that I can't have it after noon, or something.

I finally hauled myself off to bed at midnight, but proceeded to toss and turn for the rest of the night until it was miserably time to get up. And it was the type of toss and turn I have due to strong caffeine. My legs are super restless and kick around and I think combined with sleeping in so late on Sunday and being anxiety-ridden over needing to be up so early today (to make up for upcoming holiday hours), I was completely tweaked out.

I am so totally wiped out. I'm trouble having with complicated things like, keeping my head up-right and not slinking off my chair and onto the ground.

I also wore my less-comfortable pair of shoes and am going to be in hell all day.

AAAAAAARRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH.

Also, I think I need food but lack the motivation to get any. I randomly want a forbidden sausage-mcmuffin (which there is no way in hell I can get). Maybe when Jeff gets here, he'll feed me. Or not. I mean, I have soy crisps in my office, but I don't want soy crisps. Though in the face of starvation (yay, melodrama), you'd think I'd be less picky. But we really wants eggses.

Do I re-caffeinate now? To get through the day? Or should I just let my body re-equilibrate?

Can't believe am this sensitive to frigging caffeine.

Am going to die. *thud*

Comments

[archaica.livejournal.com]

Have the caffeine *now*, that way at the end of the day when you come down off it you can properly crash, rather than having to string yourself out if you have it, say, at noon. Unless you've got stuff you have to do tonight (to which the answer is NO YOU DON'T)

[some_other_dave]

I suggest re-caffeinating. If you ain't gonna make it through the day otherwise...

[verbicide.livejournal.com]

I've been trying to toughen it out, but I think at least a mild dose of Diet Pepsi is in order :)

[verbicide.livejournal.com]

I did have some caffeine, but I don't know how much good it's going to do me. For I am wiped out.

I actually do have plans tonight that I can't cancel...(I know, I know).

My friend Emily got us advance-tickets to Rent. There's no way I can back out (not because she wouldn't understand, because she is really wonderful) but because... well, it's a free advance screening! It's special. If we'd just made plans to go see a movie randomly, I would reschedule.

But immediately after, I'm driving straight home and going to bed. I figure if I can tuck myself in by 10, I should be caught up on sleep by tomorrow morning.

I am never allowed to have a latte again. Ever. EVER.